A question I have been asking myself several times, repeatedly, is how do people do it? How do you write a marvellous book that gives you a name out there forever and brings you millions of millions dollar? I am thinking of John Grisham, August Strindberg, Astrid Lindgren, Stephen King, Selma Lagerlöf and all the other authors we all know about... How did they do that?
I have been searching for the answer of this question since I started to write. My search was like orientating without a map. I had no idea of what I was looking for, and even less where to look. I guess I have been looking for the magic button, a message just for me. Push this button on your computer, and voila – you will have a great story! Guess what - that never happened!
Walking the long and sometimes hard way called LIFE I found a way of writing that works for me. After mixing and tricking, and most of all; trying to find an easy way, I had to resign and accept that writing is a process that takes time, courage, and sometimes it causes pain while I have to work, work, work it. It is more than just a job. It is a way of living.
Reading
I am reading ever day. By reading, I learn how to write. I read all different kind of stuff, not only the authors I prefer. Reading books makes my fantasy burn; it twists my reality inside out. It helps me to understand the possibilities for what I can create with just a blank piece of paper and a pen. There are no limits. When other authors are breaking boundaries while writing it turns me on to do the same. It helps me to change, develop myself.
Writing
Just as I am reading, I am also writing every day. To write is to internalize what I have learned by reading, and living. It gives me a chance to play around with my thoughts and ideas, find new worlds and ways of expressing myself. I am discovering. Writing is like a film; I can see it in my head as if it would have its own life. I just play around with it and discover situations that never been... always been... in my head. Then I put them on paper, and the flow in on. Writing every day makes my writing flow.
Socializing
While I am reading and writing at home, I also socialize with likeminded people away from home. They help to improve my writing skills, and become a part of my living. They give more life into my already existing life. Friends tell me who I am, they tell me things I do not know about life, and twists my brain inside out. Suddenly life becomes more, thicker, bigger and a question to answer.
About a year ago, I met a guy at a webpage, also a scuba diver like me. We exchanged some emails and said that maybe we would go out scuba dive some time. But a year later we still haven't met, and the mail was a bit silent. I lived my life, met more people, got myself more interests. I joined the writing group at Thursday evenings and... there he was. The same guy I spoke to at the internet a year earlier were suddenly sitting right in front of me! That kind of things happens when I choose to live. And it gives me wonderful thoughts about life. How? How in the whole world could this happen? And a story starts to run in my head, with all the fantasies that makes a story.
Meditations
I am doing two different meditations each day. My morning meditation is a kind of affirmation. I am thinking and focusing at what I truly want in my life. I want to write, live on my writing and get the Nobel Prize in literature. Therefore, I am closing myself and entering the world of possibilities, I can see myself clearly. I am an old woman living in a big house, sitting in the garden with a cup of tea in my hand. My legs are resting on another chair, and my eyes are closed. You ask what I am doing. I say I am working. I am just creating another wonderful story in my head to write down later on this evening. I can see the Nobel Prize in literature on my wall, the one I got just a couple of years ago. It makes me so proud.
The other meditation I am doing is an evening meditation. That one is about gratefulness. I believe that the key to get what we want is being grateful for what we already have. When I am grateful for what I have, I am also discovering more ways to use the things I have. And no one denying the source of the goodness in our lives will ever get anything more. Be grateful!
Affirmations
I am telling myself that I am a Nobel Prize winner in literature, ever day. I am telling myself that I am living on my reading; I am one of the most marvellous authors of this decade, this century. I am bright, smart, a new goddess in the writers' heaven. This is a reality, it is already here, now, and it is the only existing truth about me.
If you cannot see it, well I am so sorry, but that is really your problem. I can see it, I know it is truth because I already have it in my mind. Everything that ever has been created started in one single persons mind as an idea. I am the creator of my future, my life, my reality. I am the Nobel Prize winner in literature.
Living
My writing is my living, or maybe it is the opposite. Maybe my living is my writing. It is so connected! When living I get ideas, inputs, a material to write about. I mean real living, which is so much more than just existing. Living is to see people, to do the things you really want to do - no matter what! To live is to give your boss the finger and see what happens.
I love to experiment with life and all it contains, and when the society and its rules do not allow me to go further, I use to go just a bit further. I live. Then, when the wall I just hit is too hard, too thick, and too massive - then I pick up a piece of paper and a pen... to go even further.
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